I sit. And I think. And get lost. Must be age. Catching up.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

On Freud

Was reading up on Sigmund Freud on the way back from office a while back. Crazy bugger !

He opined that women are envious of men as they do not have penises. And it is that envy that made women drive men to war, so that they can get killed. He also said that men are envious of women because of their breasts. And with every instance of having sex, man kills the woman. Again and again.

Can one believe this !!!

Austria has produced more than its share of mad men … Sigmund Freud, Adolf Hitler and not to forget the “Big Daddy” of them all … the latest … Joseph Fritzel.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Obama & Nobel : Follow Up

My wife heard this in her school last Thursday; a conversation between two Indian kids of the VIth Standard.

Student 1 : Hey, did you see Obama getting the Nobel ? My daddy said it's a joke.
Student 2 : Shut Up !! Don't say anything rotten about MY President.

Student 2 is a proper Tam-Bram Indian (who we both have sighted on more than one occasion having dinner @ Banana Leaf with his family, with Sambar dripping way down past his wrists), whose only connection with US of A happens to be the fact that his father was posted in Seattle for 1 year, well before his (student's) birth.

What has the world come to ? What have we done to our kids ?

Friday, October 9, 2009

Me - The Nobel Laureate To Be

Realization has dawned today upon me.

If he can win the Nobel peace prize, then so can I.

Next year I would win the prize for my exemplary contribution to the world of "Carbonic Wastes and Fusion Technology" - for constant emission of gaseous matter with the smell of Hydrogen Sulphide, disproportionate to my levels of consumption.

I have absolutely nothing against our man and the efforts that he is putting in, the 'novel' (read nobel) ideas that he is bringing onto the board, but I mean, come on, this is THE Nobel Prize that we are talking about here.

What has the world come to ?

No more is there honour, not even among thieves.

Sad, but true.

A Dream


I had a dream.

I had a dream last night.

I dreamt that I had fallen inside a deep well full of murky water and all my near and dear ones were standing near the well. Peeping down. And commenting ....
  • Ronjha MoyeeOke ekta bra ene daaow … or bra r dorkaar. Shiggirii ..
  • SujataHyan re Ronjha, O pore gelo ?
  • KuurchiGampaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ... !!
  • BabaHmmmm … pore gelo dekchi …
  • MaThik i toh !
  • Pop In LawOke ekta O2 diye daaow. Oi neeche nongra jol khaabe, pet kharaap hobe
  • Mom In Law - Jiboner nana otha-pora jeno gaaaye na laage. Shurobhito Antiseptic Creame Bororlin !
  • PGRonjha, make sure when he speaks to the rescuers, he does so in Queen’s English. Nice boy !
  • Jethi - "Jaaaah, kaawsh ki ryaaa ?" (Suitably accompanied with a' ppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee paaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrr pip' sound)

PS :

  • PG was my English tutor during the Don Bosco Kolkata days to whom goes the credit for my love for English languague and literature.
  • My mom has a habit. Each and every sentence of hers start with "Thik i toh". Suppose someone tells her “jaano kakima, ami na aaj bus stand e daariye daariye naak khute, naaru paakiyechi” …. Amar Ma sheta shune bolbe … “Thiki toh .. maaaaane ???? Emamaaaaaaa !!!”
  • Amaar shoshur moshaai works for Cadilla, and as with all other people working for a pharma company, he has an uncanny ability to suggest 5 different medicines for so simple a thing as a headache. And O2 is his favourite drug for all water borne diseases.
  • My dad is one of the most reticent humans I have ever seen in my life. The most extreme of his reactions to ANYTHING is a pause of 5 seconds and then “Hmmm … “
  • My jethi is a compulsive farter (is there any such word ?). A dozen farts a second, we have actually grown up with the bhuurrrrrps, pyaaaaaa, pooooooo, piiiiiip, piii-puuuuuu ... And all along she tends to believe that noone can make them out. What she singularly refuses to appreciate, till date, is the fact that on account of the geographical distribution of flesh @ posterior being not in the manner best warranted, the sound does comes out and horribly so.
  • And lastly, I have not the foggiest idea as to why Ronjha said what she said !! :-)

An Old Photograph & Some Thoughts



Baba,

Ektu aage I was flipping through the old snaps. Of you and Ma.

Choto belaar kotha mone pore gelo.

Aaaj khub brishti porche. Khub. Jhom jhomiye, akaash kaalo kore. Khub baaj o pore ekhaane.

Baaj porle. Megh daakle, amaar khub mojaa laage. Chotto belaar sriti hoi-hoi kore pheere ashe. Choto belay amra jokhon groom er chuuti teh Daadu r okhaane jetaam, tokhon khub brishti petaam majhe majhe. Mamabari ta shotti kintu ekta veritable chiriya-khana chilo. Humans as well as non-humans. Daadu r ekta posha kochhop chilo mone ache ? Naam abaar chilo Biirpuruush. Tini uthon-moy daapie beraten. Ami kheltaam onar shaathe. R Ma checha-toh .. “Babai !! Oke ghetto na !! Uuuff .. r kotodin bolbo .. r bhalo laage na. Baba ashuk porshu, ami jodi na bolechi, dekho” … Mone ache, tumi ashaar shathe-shathei shuru hoto complain … Jaaihok, ami toh kotha shuntaami na … Kochhop take khochataam … ekta loma paat-kathi diye .. Tarpore Dadu ekdin amake bollo je kochhop jodi ekbaar pa kaamre dhore, taale naaki chaare na .. Jotokkhon na megh dakche. Tarpor theke ami r oitaar tri-shimanaay jetaam na joddin na brishti hoto.

Ekhon megh daakle, baaj porle, amaar choto bela abaar phiire ashe. Keno jano ? Kuurchi ta boddo bhiituu … Baaj porlei amaar kole jhaapiye ashe .. Bhoy e. Ami prothome bhabtaam nekamo. Taar pore dekhlaam shotti shotti bhoy paaay. Ekdom kuukre thaake. chokh buuje. Amio kortaam eirom. Tomar koler modhhe much guuje pore thaktaam, mone ache ?

Boyosh je hochhe bujhte paari aajkaal. Bhalo laage ek ek shomoy. Feel mellow(er). Chaar-khana daari shada hoyeche. Bhaloi laage.

Ebaar ekta chotto Shameek / Kuurchi laage. It would be swell to watch the kid grow up. Jano, aajkaal bhalo laage bhabte. Ekta labradaor thakbe. Naam hobe Chomchom. Laffiye jhaapiye beraabe. With equal gusto our kid would also gambol along with the dog. Ektuuow bhoy paabe na, borong Chomchom ke ottyachaar kore maarbe. Ami chupchap sofa teh boshe boi porbo. Ekta chokh odeike thakbe, jate kamre na dey kukur ta (oboshho, amaar chele hole, oi beta kukur take kamrabe) … Kuurchi komore achol pechiye ranna-ghor e ranna korbe. Haathe, mane nokh e holud – tel lege thakbe; chicken ta marrinet korte diyeche just, taai. Ghor moy luuchi r gondho berobe, shaathe alu-r torkaari – breakfast (chicken ta lunch e hobe, Sunday toh). R majhe majhe eshe boka diye jaabe …. Amakei naturally

Ei je, “rambling” chaalu hoye geche. Ami bodhoy r paltalaam na.

Amra ekhaane bhalo achi. Khub. Tomar mone ache Baba, biyer din shokaale jokhon “biddi” korchile tumi, tokhon ami paashe boshechilaam. Amake tuumi hotaath bolle “Babai, you have been a good man. Now try and be a good husband. Priorities need to change.”

Ami jaani na whether I have been able to be a good husband. It’s too early a time to comment. But the best part is that I am not having to “try”. It’s coming naturally. The whole day I count the hours till the time I can go back and spend a quiet evening with Kuurchi. That itself is so fulfilling. And I must commend her compatibility. Ei bhaabe nijer baba ma r kach theke uprooted hoye, settling down in a city which is totally unknown to her without any known human being – calls for a lot of courage.

Amader bedroom e complex er adho-aalo ashe. Janala diye. Kuurchi ghumoy amar buuke matha diye. O khub taratari shue pore. Ami toh nocturnal. Amar ghum ashte deri hoy. Light nibiye diye, aadh showa hoye, baalish e helaan diye, amar buuke rakha Kuurchi r mathaay hath bolaate bolaate, oi aadho-alo r ondhokaar e choto-belaar kotha bhabi.

Ekta odbhuut bhalo laagaaay buuk ta bhore othe. Kaauke bojhate pari na. Tokhoni koshto ta hoy. Ami beshi kichu chaai na jibon theke. Just a little peace, which has been alluding me for long. Ekhon peyechi “peace”.

Muthooy kore rekhechi dhore.

Anguul er phaak diye golte debo na.

Kichhhuutei na.

Pronaam Nio,
Babai

PS : @ KG - I tried. And now I realise I should not even have tried. Nowhere near your piece.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Grocery Shopping – Trauma Unlimited

Act 1, Scene 1

Friday Night, After having returned from the weekly dining out : Location – Bedroom

I am lying on my stomach, biting my nails, trying to finish off as many pages of QBVII before the inevitable statement “Ufff .. kotobaar eki boi porbe bolte paro ? Biyer por theke count korleow toh at least 4 times hobe. Friday night and you are reading”. And within moments the statement comes. Albeit differently. “Ei .. otho toh, otho. Come on. Start typing on your iPhone. Eto daam diye ghontaar jinish kinecho, make use of it. Lekho – Ami grocery list bolchi”. My whole world collapses. The sky falls on my head and I am rudely reminded that I have to go grocery shopping with her tomorrow.

Act 1, Scene 2

30 minutes later.

The list seems endless. Damn ! And shows no sign of nearing the finish line. Tap tap tap .. goes my finger, with a hasty sneak at Facebook and then back again Tap tap tap. The darned thing is so unwieldy. Am yet to figure out how to disable the ‘intelligent’ way the phone predicts the word. Jeera becomes ‘Jeers’, Dhonepata becomes ‘Shone Pata’, Moida becomes ‘Noida’. Give me my paper and pen any day.

Act 2, Scene 1

Wee hours of Saturday morning

At precisely 06.00 AM the alarm clock on my side of the bed (mind you, on my side of the bed) shrills itself to glory and I open one bleary eye, grope around and bang on the snooze button and go off to sleep. Peace. But only for the ensuing 5 minutes. And again the whistle blows. Again a bang on the snooze button. This time a little bit harder, after which I bury my face in(side) the pillow trying to join the shredded links to slumber and the wonderful dream of Monica Bellucci that I was having. Just when she has me tied up on the bed with her silk stockings and she is about to ravage me, another alarm goes off !! This time a little farther away, out of my reach, kept in the middle of the night by my wife, so that I am forced to wake up. Women !!

Act 2, Scene 2

30 minutes later, in the taxi, after asking her how long the shopping would take.

Kuurchi: “Why ? You have plans of going for tennis, is it ? Last weekend you promised that you would not this weekend.” And before I can even answer, “Chuck it. Why do you promise things when you cannot keep them ? You promised that you would be cooking the chicken today”

Wow !!! Double whammy !!

Me: “See ? I never said that I would go for tennis. I just wanted to know when we would be back as I wanted to have the chicken marinated for a longer time. That’s all. Ki bhaabe misconstrue koro amake dekhecho toh ?” (And I breathe a tiny sigh of relief, phew, that was a close one).

Kuurchi: “I am soooooo sorry Gampa. You really would be cooking today ? How sweet of you.”

Me: “Of course I would.” (Shit .. had I been a little tactful, I could have slithered out)

Kuurchi: “You can turn right and park in the Mustafa Taxi Stand please” (to the taxi driver).

Act 2, Scene 3

Some 45 minutes later, in Level 01 of Mustafa.

I stand. With the push cart in front of me. Beside the Revlon counter. Totally disoriented. She has come and asked me opinions on 4 different shades of lipstick and when I dutifully nodded the third time, she looks at me and says “Uuff .. etto confused keno tuumi ??? Ekta opinion dite paro na thik kore”. I meekly point out that all four of them had appeared similar and all four of them would look ravishing on her. She gives me the “give up” look and says “Plisss !! Give me a break. One was Coco Craving, the other was In The Red, the 3rd one was Rosy and the last one was Really Red. Je jinish ta bojho na, sheta niye KENO matha ghamaaow ?”

Hey ! You were the one who asked me !

15 more minutes and yet not having decided the shade(s), "Chalo let's go up and finish off the groceries on Level 02 and on the way back would pick up one from here along with one for Boudi" (aaah trying to make up for the last spat that she had with her). Dutifully I push the cart into the lift and make the solitary mistake of hitting the wrong button. We end up on the basement.

"Offf ho. Ki je karona." And the very next second "Achha bhaloi hoyeche neeche eshe. I have to check out one thing". I wince. "one thing", from past experience, is an extremely fluid set of words and can range from anything to jewelry to a new ironing board.

Me : “No !! I am not going to turn right. The push cart can be taken only till the lingerie section. Ami okhaane wait korbo na. Last time I felt humiliated !”

Kuurchi : “Ore baba. Just 5 minutes. And don’t act as if you don’t peep into the racks. Who was it that told me about the Triumph Zero Gap ?”

For my sins I am made to stay put. And that too bang in front of the same section. 5 minutes creep onto become 25. Women pass by. Giving me dirty looks. But naturally. I am the lone guy standing amidst the multitude of garters, hoses and the other un-mentionables.

At the stoke of half an hour, she comes back. Empty handed, but with resolution writ large on her face. On seeing my questioning look, she says that she was checking out some swim suits, which she intends to wear when (and if) she loses weight. I say nothing. She says “Tumi bujhbe na. Ami nijeke motivate korchilaam roga howaar jonno. Chalo !!! Ha kore dariye ki dekhcho charidike. Shobaai pervert bolbe”.

Act 2, Scene 4

Level 02 – Grocery Section (at last)

A veritable sea of humanity. I trudge along in the line, pushing the cart. She picks up stuff from the racks. Sometimes doing the vanishing act (How I wish the state stays put) and reappearing with armloads of stuff. Time comes to a standstill. I try to do a juggling act, between managing the cart and tapping on the phone to read out the list, inevitably punctuated by “Dekhle !! Dekhle !! Ekhon bolcho Ginger Paste. Aaage bolte parle na ? Now who would go back all the way ?”. I grin and bear it and make my way to the vegetables section, where in addition to pushing the cart, tapping the phone, my job description includes tearing off the plastic bags from the rolls, fighting with each of them to have them opened up and handing them over to the wife to put the vegetables in.

I pull out the iPod and plug it in to my ears. Selecting the song / album is a function of the number of pushes that I get from a similar unfortunate guy behind me with a push cart and an equally traumatic look on his face.

Kuurchi : "Ki gaan shuncho ? Tomar pishir record kora Bangaal bhashaay gaan ? Uuff !! Repulsive. Tomra Bangaal ra etto uncooth. Class bole jinish tar je ki obhaab .... Oomma !! Koyel!! Kemon acho go tumi ? Kaawtodeeeeeen dekhi na. Oma ! Ki shundor kurti ta porecho go ? Ekhankaar Fab theke kinecho bujhi ? .. Tomaake Shoptomi r din oi kalo Dhaakai shari ta pore je ki aaawshaaadhaaron lagchilo na .. ki bolbo !! Uufff .. Shameek toh shob shomoy bole je you look the best in a saree"... (a few seconds pause) .. "Achha shono amra egoi .. Baba ! Arek joner ja mejaj .. ekhuni hoyto bole uthbe je koro tuumi shopping, ami gelaam. Eei .. phone koro. And do let's catch for lunch one of these days."

I give a keshto-hashi and move on. For a change my wife is alongside me (instead of marching ahead). She looks furtively back and whispers in my ear "Maaaggo !! Ki disgusting. Khuuki sheje boshe r koto din thakbe. Bhor belaay shobji kinte esheche, othocho dekho mukh ta jeno pancake. Nyaaaka. Shojhho korte paari na."

I keep mum (have realised the hard way that's the safest thing to do)

15 minutes later and all vegetables bought. The ordeal is nearing its end.

Kuurchi: “Shono, line up on the weighing counter and have the stuff weighed. And please Shameek, PLEASE ensure that EVERYTHING is weighed. Don’t do it like the last time. Ami fruits niye aschi.”

Another serpentine queue. Reminds me of the Holocaust movies that I have watched. And 7 minutes later,

Kuurchi : (Daaat chepe; every alternate human in Mustafa is a Bong) “Gaawd !! Duudh er bottle weigh korcho keno. Are you mad ! !?”

Me: “Oh ho. Sorry mumma. I was just distracted, thinking if I should cook Chicken Do Piyaza naaki normal Murgir jhol”

A streak of sunshine and the words “Shotti ? Omma how sweet. Golu ekta tuuumi.”

Yeah, if only she could read my mind. A few more of recurrences and I would be buying a one way ticket to the loony-bin.

Rebak Island – In The Middle of Nowhere

Am back.

After a 4 day hiatus in a tiny dollop of greenery surrounded by the turquoise blue Andaman Sea on all sides – a privately owned island called Rebak, a 20 minutes speed boat ride from Langkawi. Soothing to the eyes, a balm to a tired (over worked ?) mind, when you sit atop the black rocks beside the Marina in Rebak, the world around you seems to be a small place that everyone has forgotten – And thankfully so.

Owned by the Taj Group of Hotels, the Rebak Island Taj Resort is the only resort in the whole island and offers you 3 white beaches, 2 of which are inaccessible from anywhere other than from within the island. Corals and thunderous waves would pummel any boat to smithereens if you try to approach the beaches from the outside.

We arrived at Langkawi on a windy morning, the Langkasuka Port, a bare 5 minutes cab ride from the airport. A tiny speedboat, powered by 2 Yamaha outboard motors, tethered to the jetty and my first thought was “Shit ! And we have to ride this to the island !!” .. and I looked towards the horizon. The breakwater (a wall that was created post the Tsunami in Dec 2004, so as to prevent Langkawi from getting washed off again) could be seen far far away and nothing beyond. And I thought again “Ah not that bad, eh !”.

10 minutes into the ride and having crossed the breakwater, I was literally holding onto life, with the boat being tossed around in waves of 15 feet high, extreme winds and sleeting rain. Sitting in the front, beside the Captain’s wheel, the only thing that I could see was the steel girder in the front of the boat (speedboats are always angled upwards). I was singularly trying not to look out of the window to my left. I had done once and I had nearly thrown up. Nothing but a green curtain of waves, building up and rolling, at least 5 feet above the height of the boat and rushing towards us.

Just when I was about to ‘relieve’ myself in my jeans, the rolling suddenly stopped as if by magic. The water was deep turquoise, calm and crystal clear. We did a sharp bend and I heard a “Wow!” from my wife sitting behind me. On looking out of the window I saw a number of yachts lined up inside the Marina. Some wet and some on the dry docks, with their main masts scaling upwards. A solitary Scarlett Minivet was perched at the top of the nearest mast and was peeking down at us. Beady eyed.



We glided through and moored at the Marina jetty and from that moment on, it was sheer luxury. Each and every need was catered to even before we could spell it out. A golf cart at our disposal, we could roam around the motor-able areas of the island.

And when requested for, we were given a Quad Bike which allowed us to go a little jungle exploring. However the adventure had to be cut short when in the midst of the tropical rain forest, while sitting atop the Quad bike and trying to capture the setting sun, a Monitor Lizard (for the Bongs out here, a Monitor Lizard is called a “guui shaap” in India) suddenly decided that it quite liked Raka’s pink sneakers and wanting to taste it, flicked out its 1 foot long tongue and the result was a shriek which must have been heard all the way to Langkawi. I could not decide who was more scared. The lizard or Raka. The lizard reared back, turned around and slithered away on its fat stomach with a last furtive look at Raka before it vanished. I am sure he had a story to tell his family that night.

As for Raka, all that I could hear were “How many times did I tell you NOT to get me here for this ride ? How many times ? And yet you do not listen !! Can you imagine what would have happened ? That crocodile could have snapped off my leg in two !!!! Turn around NOW !!! We are going back !!”

Crocodile ????!! Women ! How conveniently she forgot that it was her who had cajoled me into taking her along with me for the Jungle ride.

Dreading the waves, we went out only a day to the main island to ride up the Cable Car to the bridge where SRK fought Boman Irani in Don – II (the view is just about mind blowing from the top and on a clear day you can see all the way to the southern tip of Thailand) and went shopping for some artifacts to take back home.

For the ones who want to squeeze out the max out of a holiday, you can go island hopping in a boat, mangrove tour, para sailing, jet skiing, crocodile farm, fish farm – et all.

A must visit, Rebak Island would be the perfect weekend gateway, if you are like me, if you are not planning to do much apart from lazing around and getting pampered by the typical Taj hospitality. For me, a seaside holiday should be spent in fitting my 6 feet lanky frame on an arm chair in the balcony, just a few feet away from the lapping waves and day dreaming with a book in the hand. And the Rebak Island Taj Resort offered me just that.

Am a tad boring.

I know that.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Wishful Thinking

Have you ever sat and wondered what are the things that you “wished you were” ? Have you ever sat and felt “Wish I could be like ....... (sigh)” Here is a compiled list of the ones that I wish for.

  1. I wish I had intense eyes like Anthony Hopkins and yet the physique of Arjun Rampal.
  2. I wish I could be as sexy as Jack Nicholson. (Nobody, just NOBODY is so sexy)
  3. I wish I could own a Willy’s jeep. The original one.
  4. I wish I knew all the table manners.
  5. I wish I had a female fan following like Brad Pitt.
  6. I wish I could have written a blockbuster like Chetan Bhagat’s first.
  7. I wish I could smell like Ferrari Black ALL the time.
  8. I wish I could sketch like Samir Biswas.
  9. I wish I did not look like Shakti Kapoor whenever I don on my new Oakley’s.
  10. I wish I had an arse like John Abraham’s.
  11. I wish I could dress up in a faded jeans and a t-shirt and yet look suave.
  12. I wish I could speak as well as PKV.
  13. I wish I could sing as well as Shyamal Mitra.
  14. I wish I could don on the apron and cook magic for my wife (Not always – would be setting a bad precedent).
  15. I wish I had the money to matter.
  16. I wish I owned an airlines like Virgin (and the stewardesses, mind you).
  17. I wish I did not chew my nails.
  18. I wish I was as enigmatic as Budhhodeb Guho.
  19. I wish I had one more Omega and one more Tag.
  20. I wish I had no toothache.
  21. I wish I could understand “What Women Want”.
  22. I wish I could PIP.
  23. I wish I could dig my nose in public, make a naaru and stick ‘em everywhere, marking my territory.
  24. I wish …..
  25. I wish ………….
  26. I wish I had met Kuurchi years earlier.

Inspired by an article by Scribbler. They say “imitation is the greatest form of flattery.”

Thursday, September 10, 2009

PIP (Poop In Peace)


Have you ever noticed how :

(a) You inevitably forget to mute your cell phone when you visit the poop can in the office ? and
(b) You inevitably get a call from your Boss when you are "delivering" the "goods" ?

Every time my phone goes into the MJ mode (my ring tone now is a tribute to MJ - The last un-earthly laugh in the Thriller song) in the confines of the 3 ft x 4 ft cubicle, I know it's gotta be my Boss. That guy has an uncanny ability to po(o)p up in my life in the most un-opportune of moments.

This is how the conversation goes most of the time :

B: Update me on the status Sam ? (he just is NOT able to pronounce my name right)
Me : Well, work is on, 2 modules delivered. One more 'on the way' (this I mention after I peep through the tiny aperture between my opulent tummy and the rim of the throne and observe 2 tiny crocodiles underneath the water and bubbling and one more in 'suspended animation' stage)

B : So what is the issue ? Why has it not been done by now ?
Me : Well .. Time was a constraint.

B : Do you need more resources to give you a helping hand ?
Me : No no. Thanks for the help though (Huh ! 'Helping Hand' .. what a joke. As if they would 'pull' things out)

B : You don't seem very conversational this morning ..
Me : Who ? Me ? Of course not. I am good. (With a grimace, as I try to 'push' the W-I-P version out, and end up emitting a noise).

B : Hey ! What was that noise ? You again watching the re-runs of the Wimbledon on YouTube in office hours ? I could hear Steffi Graph grunting with the serve.
Me : Huh ? Oh no NO !

B : Something is really wrong .. You ok maaiite ?
Me : Yeah, yeah, am ok. (I feel like screaming 'No I am NOT and I want to tear off your brown beard for not letting me poop in peace’).

B : Aaaaah .. now I know what's eatin’ ya .. must be the wifey .. Yeah, yeah I know how painful they can be .. remember, I was married thrice.
Me : Uuumm .. no no, that's not the issue. Am good. Am good (Maaaiiite, just GO !!!! I am blissfully married. Not like you)

B : Hey, why don't we meet up this weekend for a beer or two @ Clarke Quay ?
Me : Yup, sure. (No !!! I don't want to have another session of listening to your escapades in Thailand)

B : So, any more updates ?
Me : Well .. one more just 'delivered'. (Now there are 3 floating around)

B : Good. Listen, you MUST let me know when the whole thing finishes. Talk to ya later
Me : Sure (Trust me, you don't want to know)

I end the call. Wipe and flush. As I stand in front of the mirror and count the number of grey hairs on my side burns (the wife has been pestering for quite some time now that I start dying my hair), I find a very familiar voice nearby "Honey, sorry, I was on the phone with Sam .. that bugger needs to be chased now and then .. .. What ? Oh WOW !!! .. So your hubby is out of town, is it ? … Then why don’t I pack some dinner and come down at 10 ? You still do have my toothbrush at your place, right ?"

I shockingly stare at the locked poop cubicle .. 2 counters away from the one where I had been moments ago. I can see the tip of the brown shoes protruding out nearly out of the door.

Bugger ? Bugger me ? Huh ???

Bugger YOU !!!!

*******
PS :

  1. Ronjha-Moyee, is this a perfect example of OCD ?
  2. Inspired by a conversation in the next poop cubicle today morning. The bloke was talking to his wife and taking down the grocery list for shopping on the way back home.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Gahonwaaaa

It’s a cold and rainy night that I park the Government issued rickety Jeep into the garage. Albeit a little groggily. Even on the best of days, Vodka and I have never been good bed fellows. It’s past 2 in the morning and I wearily pull myself out of the car, wanting nothing more than hitting the bed. I manage to drag myself across the sleeting rain to the verandah of the Circuit House, which has been my home for the last four months, since I have been posted in the “middle of nowhere”, a tiny hamlet called Chalsha in North Bengal, with the river Murti meandering its way across.

And I notice Bhairuu, the old Rajasthani watchman of my building. Huddled around a make shift fire. Along with a younger chap. And he gives me a benign smile as if chiding me for my stupor. Somehow I have always gelled well with folks of this sort. I have always felt that they are like the apparently rough soil of Midnapore. Drop a little bit of water and you would be amazed at the way the soil sucks it off. These people are like that. You show them a little love and you win a friend for life. Uncomplicated and un requited friendship.

I take a step towards them. He once again gives me a benign smile and says “Saab, hamra gharwala hain. Aya hain North Bangaal ghumne.”

“Waah. Bahuut khuub. Toh, kidharwa ghumaila ?”

"Aaj hi toh ayaa hain Saab ... Saab, ii baahut achha gaana gaata hain.. Aaap sunowge? "

And before I can say anything, he tells his companion, “Aaare u-wala ganaa ga Collector Saaab ke liye .. U .. des-wala .. jisme uu biwi jaati hain wapas maai ke ghad .. saaadi ke baad pahlibaar, u-wala gaana. Aiye na Saab … baithiye na .. Chaay bhi hain … deta hu.”

With nothing better to do other than falling asleep, I sit. I light a cigarette. My “senses” are fighting a losing battle to drive away the backlash of gulping 3 large Vodkas.

The young chap provides a sort of background before he starts singing. The song is essentially a “Bundelkhandi”. So, this girl happens to be from that village and she has been married to a gent from another village. This is the first time she has returned to her maternal home in the village after her marriage. For a few days. And her friends are hounding her to narrate explicitly what all had happened between her and her husband, from the nuptial night onwards. They want to know all the gory details. The gorier the better.

Driven up the wall by their incessant queries, this girl narrates the entire saga in the form of a song. And the song is now sung to me by the young companion of my watchman. I slowly sip the tea which the later has provided me with and listen on.

"Guuiya (shokhi), bahut saataye sasureme sajanwa gahenowame jab pahile gaayi rahan"

Which means, my husband actually was after my life when I went to my husband’s the first time after my “gahanwa”. And she blushes.

Seeing my blank look, my watchman patiently explains to me the concept of GAHONWAR.

There are yet some places in this country where girls are married off at a very tender age, the saving grace being that they are not subjected to the “agony” at that age. They stay with their parents till the time nature works its course and they are capable of consummating the act of marriage. This reaching the age of puberty is called GAHONWAR. It is after reaching the stage of GAHONWAR that they are sent off to stay and live with their husbands.

But I digress.

The song continues and the girl is narrating her escapades of the first night.

"Pahila hukum lagaweh piuuwa ja bhar laawye paani"

He first asked her to get him a pitcher of cold water from the well. He is thirsty and wants a drink.

"Paaniya bhorot mora aachla chuut gewo duno bhaari jaawani"

When leans forward to pull the pitcher of water from the well, the anchaal of her saree, the pallu slips off and the twin orbs of delight that she has all along so preciously guarded from prying eyes, are visible. To the tree leaves, to the owl sitting like a monk atop the tree, to the wind which swishes among the leaves and even to the two village bullies who loiter around the communal well.

"Gunda dikkhe dikkhe tarse mora jaawania / Gahenowame jab pahile gaayi rahan"

And when she notices the bullies watching, her heart skips a beat and she is frightened and she rushes home to her husband.

I find this word GAHONWA extremely intriguing. Lovely word. Is there any better a jewel for a girl than the capability of giving birth to another human being ?

"Duuja huukum lagawe piuuwa, jaldi banaawoe roti"

Her husband drinks the water and orders her to make her some chapptis for dinner. And he wants them quick as he is hungry.

"Rotiwa banat meri najaar palaat gaayi, roti ho gaayi moti"

She gets distracted while making the chapattis and resultantly they are thicker than what they should be.

"Saaiya kheech kheech kar maare mohi belonwaa."

She serves them to her husband and because the chapattis are thicker than warranted, her husband is not at all amused and he gives her an ear full. And not stopping at that, the husband picks up the wooden roller that is used to knead the dough and beats her mercilessly with that.

"Teeje huukum laagawe piuua jaldi bichanwa shej."

Satisfied with the thrashing that he has doled out for her, the husband now orders the girl to prepare the bed for them to sleep. He has a different thrashing in mind now. He asks her to make the bed fast as he is in desperate need,

"Sojiaa bichot mohi der ho gaayi pakar lin mora pet."

The girl, in order to please her man, takes extreme care in preparing the bed. The husband does not like this delay. He grabs hold of the girl and lands on top of her and grabs hold of her midriff and positions himself.

"Saaaiya kheech kheechke maare mora paranwa / Gahenowame jab pahile gaayi rahan"

And then the inevitable happens. The husband tears her apart, a brutal rape of a newly bloomed flower, whose fresh petals are torn apart and strewn around.

The song ends. Bhairuu and his companion have light a “chutta” which they share. I myself light up a smoke and look at the fire. Tiny flakes spiral upwards. My mind drifts.

I can literally visualize the girl’s face as she fills up the water pitcher and the communal well in her mother’s place amidst the raucous and suggestive laughter of her companions.

No one notices a single drop of tear that rolls down her right cheek, which she hastily wipes with her free hand. No one notices the angst in her young mind. No one notices the agony that she has learnt to live with. No one notices the pain.

No one notices her shattered dream – the dream that she has seen throughout the period of growing up and re-discovering her body and her mind. The dream which she has seen, while coming to realize the beauty of her existence in this world. The dream that she has seen, lying on the cot in most sleepless hot and humid summer nights, thinking of her husband and the ‘moments’ that she would spend with him. The dream that she has seen endlessly, each and every day, each and every waking hour of her existence.

The dream that was shattered on the first night itself.

I sit. The Vodka has long given over its hold to a more en-compassing grip. Thoughts.

I slowly stand up. Walk towards the stairs. And walk upwards. Thinking about the girl child. The girl and the child in her.

It pains.